Another year ....

Today has been 2 years since you were taken from us. Justin, I can't believe it, I find it impossible some days to accept.
Baby, we miss you so much. I wish I had good things to tell you. The murderer has not been prosecuted. Maybe some day.
Riley is so big and beautiful. She is YOU! But mouthier :) She is adorable. I know you are watching her from above, and are so proud. Tiffany is making you proud too. They miss you every single moment. Riley talks about you all the time.
Abby and Emma are doing well, growing up too fast. Especially Abby. She is an incredible girl.
I am doing my best here without you. I carry you close, but it isn't enough. I know you are with us all, everyday.
I am hugging you tight, my son. I love you with all my big fat heart. :) Remember that?
I LOVE YOU & MISS YOU.
Family Forever,
Mom

Happy Father's Day, Daddy!

Happy Father's Day, Daddy! Today I sent you balloons to heaven and I wrote on them all by myself! It said "I love you Daddy." I love you and miss you very much!

Love, Riley Marie

Things are not looking good for the prosecution of the low life that murdered Justin.  Everyone, please pray that something turns up, something happens that turns this around.  He needs to pay for what he has done, for taking such a beautiful person from us, for all the pain and heartbreak he has caused.  

Happy 27th Birthday, Justin

Hi baby.
Well it's here. A day I am have been dreading because it is so hard. 27 years ago you were born. My first born - you changed my life so much .. for the better. Love like I had never known as I looked at you. What a special baby you were, so sweet. I was blessed with you and continue to feel blessed to be your mama. I just wish our time together was so much longer. So many people miss you and still suffer the grief of losing you. I will never be over it, I will grieve for you until I go. I carry you with me in my heart and soul with every step I take.
Today Tiff, Riley and the girls and I are going to your tree. We are going to plant some spring flowers (too cold yet for more) , clean it up & mulch around it, and hang an ornament or 2. We will be sending your balloon wishes and messages afterward. Carissa is going to send hers up at the same time as we do. We will be on the phone.
Justin, I love you so much and miss you with all I have.
Family Forever,
Mama

Time...

They say that "time heals", but time has continued on, and

I don't feel healed. Most everyone who has experienced

a loss has spoken those words. And, those words ring so

true. Time softens the blow a bit. Time helps us to look

beyond our pain. Time helps us to reweave our lives with

new joy and cleanse our hearts of the raw pain. Time is

on our side working for us. But, time will never "take

away" all that was lost.



Hope, on the other hand, is that inner strength that gives us

the fortitude and the will to go on when we otherwise would

not have the courage to do so. Hope prods us to see the

power in a new sunrise and to know will full assurance that

we can make it through this day. Hope infuses us with the

energy we need to put one foot in front of the other and to

take mini steps in faith towards healing our broken hearts.

Happy Valentines Day, Daddy

Dear Daddy,
Happy Valentines Day. I wanted to tell you that I miss you so much. I always wish for you to come home, but I know you are watching over me from heaven. Please tell God I said hi, and that I like skittles. I love you.
Love, Riley