March 31, 1982 - November 2, 2007

Safely Home

I am home in Heaven, dear ones;
Oh, so happy and so bright!
There is perfect joy and beauty
In this everlasting light.

All the pain and suffering is over
Every restless tossing passed;
I am now at peace forever,
Safely home in Heaven at last.

Did you wonder I so calmly
Trod the valley of the shade?
Oh! but Jesus' love illumined
Every dark and fearful glade.

And he came Himself to meet me
In that way so hard to tread
And with Jesus' arm to lean on
Could I have one doubt or dread?

Then you must not grieve so sorely,
For I love you dearly still:
Try to look beyond earth's shadows,
Pray to trust our Father's will.

There is still work waiting for you,
So you must not idly stand;
Do it now, while life remaineth-
You shall rest in Jesus' land.

When that work is completed,
He will gently call you home;
Oh, the rapture of that meeting,
Oh, the joy to see you come!

- Unknown author

A beautiful life cut way too short.

"There are moments in life when you miss someone so much that you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug them for real."

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Happy Birthday!

8:49 am
Right now...it is your exact birth moment 29 years ago. THE best day of my life, I became a mommy. I am so damn lucky to have been blessed with you. You were always an amazing thing! From babyhood on...
How I wish I could have seem more of your life unfold. How I wish you were able to be Riley's daddy here on earh for much longer.
I miss you, Justin.
Family forever, and ever.
With Love and the biggest hug I can give.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

3 years already?

How in the hell is that possible?

It has been 3 years already since Justin was taken from us. Shot in cold blood.
And then...has it ONLY been 3 years? It feels both ways, all the time.

Honey, not a day goes by that you are not thought of and missed and loved. By me, your sisters, Jerry, your dad,grandparents, Aunts,cousins, friends....everyone. This void cannot be filled.
However, we are doing what we do, moving on. We have no choice. I know you are proud of how we continue in strength. I ask that you be with me, with all who hold you in their hearts every minute. Fill my heart, our hearts with your love.

I am going to try to do better in my life. I know you are hurting for me. I am okay.

After school the girls and I will do our balloon release at the school. They really enjoy sending you the messages. Today Emma asked if you got the balloons, and I said I sure hope so. But that even if they don't make it to Heaven you still know what they say.

Here is what hers says today, word for word. Is she only 7?:

Dear Justin,
I miss you so much. Every day I think about you. You were the best brother in the world. I can't believe it has been only 3 years. It feels like 100 years without you.
Emma Gordon

I LOVE YOU, Justin, My sweet sweet son.

Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Happy Birthday, Sweetheart

Dear Justin~
Today is your 28th birthday. In 25 minutes exactly. How I wish I could see you and hug you if only for a minute. I will do my best to do that in my heart and mind strong enough for us both to feel it.
I love you, forever. I will miss you all the days of my life.
You have my heart,

Thursday, January 7, 2010

Monday, November 2, 2009

Another year ....

Today has been 2 years since you were taken from us. Justin, I can't believe it, I find it impossible some days to accept.
Baby, we miss you so much. I wish I had good things to tell you. The murderer has not been prosecuted. Maybe some day.
Riley is so big and beautiful. She is YOU! But mouthier :) She is adorable. I know you are watching her from above, and are so proud. Tiffany is making you proud too. They miss you every single moment. Riley talks about you all the time.
Abby and Emma are doing well, growing up too fast. Especially Abby. She is an incredible girl.
I am doing my best here without you. I carry you close, but it isn't enough. I know you are with us all, everyday.
I am hugging you tight, my son. I love you with all my big fat heart. :) Remember that?
Family Forever,

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Happy Father's Day, Daddy!

Happy Father's Day, Daddy! Today I sent you balloons to heaven and I wrote on them all by myself! It said "I love you Daddy." I love you and miss you very much!

Love, Riley Marie

Friday, April 3, 2009

Things are not looking good for the prosecution of the low life that murdered Justin.  Everyone, please pray that something turns up, something happens that turns this around.  He needs to pay for what he has done, for taking such a beautiful person from us, for all the pain and heartbreak he has caused.